I’ve been asking God a lot of questions lately. Questions like “how, when, what, where?”
He’s not really answering my questions. Instead, he keeps telling me other things.
Things like “This is my Father’s world.”
It’s a tiny bit irritating.
Yesterday, I was feeling angst about my family’s current situation, and I was frustrated that it seems like it’s going to take years to make some really positive changes in our life. I was wishing it would be fixed quickly, and then I read something that said “what if your trial is never taken away, will you still trust God?” And it gave me pause.
Okay, I know that eventually things are going to change for us, but the question was will you trust anyway? And I really had to think about my priorities.
Was I simply begging God to work a miracle in order to make my life easier and more pleasant? Instead of working through the tough stuff?
Yes. Yes I was.
Because the truth is that God will work miracles from time to time, but when it comes to tests and trials and lessons, sometimes we have to take the slower path.
And in the midst of that, Paul says “Rejoice in the Lord always, and I’ll say it again: rejoice!” (Philippians 4:4)
So I don’t know when things are going to change, I don’t know how, I don’t know where we’ll go, or what we’ll do, I only know that right now, I should be content, I should be finding joy in spite of the difficulties, I should be trusting that God is leading me somewhere, even if I can’t see where it is.
And even if all my questions go unanswered, I can still see Him.